Monday, March 10, 2014

Dazed, confused & its still winter

Good morning everyone!

Once again I will be off line for quite awhile as this notebook is leaving the house either by give away or trashed. But before I do that I wanted to do a blog to catch you up on things.
 The 7 hens I brought home that made it through raccoon attacks & a very cold trailer, are doing well.  I have Lauria, the crooked neck hen & Pipper the twisted leg hen both in the house, Lacey is in today with them as she gets so cold even with the ceramic heat lamps she shakes really bad form the cold.  She has never gotten a good set of feathers & just can't stay warm so I have no problem bringing her in on the really nasty days to visit with Lauria.  She picks on Pipper so I keep Pipper up in the living room with me on those days.

We just had 2 fairly decent days of mid 30's & lower 40's but today its getting cold again & they say more snow is headed this way.  I love winter but this up & down of the weather where it rains, then ices up, then snows then heats up is driving me nuts as is it for the hens. 

I try to open the shop door on the nice days so they can get  a bit of sun & lay on the dry bedding that's outside on the snow.  Without the bedding hay down they won't come out if they see just snow.  I worry they are not getting the doses of Vit D they need so I am glad when they venture out even if its for just 10 minutes.

Thomas did not check his VA for school & it will be cut off April 13th, yet he still has classes until the mid of May so no income except for the $365 from military drill......so I have had to put my antique wood cooking stove & turn of the 19th century file cabinet up for sell. 

Saturday took all my good silver & gold jewelry in to a jewelry store that buys gold/silver....about 30 pieces of nice jewelry got only $600, so that hurt big time when it was at least a few $1000 in jewelry...had to give up my wedding rings also....So nothing left to hand down to my adopted grand daughter, which made me really sad.

Its not so much that I was attached to all I am having to sell but its the fact I am the only one giving up things in the house. Its like I am the only one who is worried & trying to keep the house, but soon I won't be able to help.

Now before any one yells at me & tells me to get a job, I live in a small town & check jobs often to see if there is anything I can do that I can get to.  We have one car & Thomas has it from early morning to early evening, plus one weekend each month so even finding a midnight shift that ends before 6:30 a.m. is hard but I have looked here & in towns I can drive to.  I don't care if I am washing dishes or cleaning bathrooms, I did that before I went to college & I never minded those types of jobs.

I also spent 4 days in Feb in the hosp for blood clots in my right lung & left leg again & am now on blood thinners again which means until every thing is balanced out I have to go have 2 bloods tests a week which is proving to be a pain as I have to work around Thomas school classes so instead of getting them when the doctor tells me I have to wait until Thomas decides to come home & take me....so its always late going to the doctor, so I never know what med dose to take to keep everything on the right side.  Plus my poor tummy is all bruised up from the twice daily shots but at least they don't really hurt just look really bad.

The big problem is between the shoots & pills I have daily migraines & if you deal with migraines you know how bad this can be.  I am living on migraine medicine & lots of coffee everyday trying to dull them so I can even think. 

So its like everything is ganging up on me at once & I am just at a loss of what to do besides tend to the hens.  At least they are easy & love seeing me, even if its for treats.....Now Prudence does sometimes complain about the others to me but usually she vents to me & then goes on like everything is back to better.

Its times like this I wish I was back at the farm with everything crazy but manageable & it was up to me to tend to it or it didn't get done.  Didn't have to depend on anyone else so it made it easier for me or help me.  I figured out yesterday that to be here in this house its nearly $2000 for the house, house insurance, car insurance, electric, wood for wood stove, gas for car, phone land line....that doesn't include food, propane, oil , military credit card...& on the farm with Rent, food & electricity for the coop, chicken feed was $300 or less a month....

Needless to say I was shocked at how I could live that cheap but here its so high & even though soon some of the things will be shut off...ie land line, computer & Thomas cable...that will save $200 a month but there's still the house payment, insurance etc that has to be paid & I just don't know how it will be.  If I had my way everything would be shut off & we would live like I did at the farm with just the wood stove & oil lamps, which may be a reality soon & I am fine with that. 

We are having to apply for food stamps at the end of the month & I am unhappy over that cause in my mind that's for families with children not for ones without children, so that has me in a tail spin.  The only reason the hens have fed is I got $50 for my Birthday & I kept $20 of it just for them.  I also still have about 300 lbs of their winter mix I did up at the farm so have been feeding them more of that over the winter even on the warm days as its got lots of healthy things in it for them.  Plus once it warms up the hens who still lay should be producing more eggs for us to eat & that will help. Plus when things get to be too much for me I can go out & be with them & they make me happy...so they are staying.

I don't understand why things have gotten so bad here but I do know it could be better if it was a team working together instead of just me trying to fix things.....I think things have gone too far & may never get fixed....things as so broken there may not be enough glue to put them back together.

So anyway this is a sucky post but I needed to let off some steam & let you know I may not be posting anything for quite some time.....even so there are plenty of articles I have written on chickens if you need them.

Have a great chicken day







2 comments:

  1. I AM SO VERY SORRY TO READ THIS - I so completely understand and it seems as if life, the universe or GOD is just out to slam us. I agree it works better if you work as a team and if that can not happen then I say leaps of faith are required. Please know that I am here for you - I do not have much but I do have ears to hear you with and I always keep you Dear One in my heart, prayers and energy. Hugs and Love

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  2. I am keeping you in my prayers sweet friend!
    Hugs

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